When I decided it was time to move on from my previous position, I had a glimpse of what I wanted - and I have received it, beyond my imagination. I half-heartedly believed in the power of positive thinking/visualization, but now, with every fiber of my being, I know it's true. I have surmounted a big impasse, and know that the model of positivity can be applied in any situation with success.
It is a sigh of relief to be considered a "Mid-Level Manager" at 24 (and to have my own admin on top of that!). My first week, I realized that I (with my Team) am responsible for directing every other department in the hotel. What I am working on and communicate directly affects everything from labor scheduling to food orders. Never have I been in this position - I have been on the other end, receiving the commands and following through. I invite this change of pace, and am impressed with the responsibility.
I must say things are hectic, as I am still learning new programs, new jargon, new people and new attitudes, but it's all very very worth it. There are people at The Job that have been there for 35, 22, 15, 5 years. I admire any company that can retain employees like that. There's something to be said for giving your life to an institution (and the government doesn't count).
Admittedly, I have felt often overwhelmed in this new position. Afraid to ask too many questions or no questions at all; Intimidated by my co-workers and their bond; Flooded with worry about how I am being perceived: too young, too dumb, too smart, too pretty, too plain, too timid, too loud. In time this will pass, I am sure of it.
And...I am not complaining - rather, I am Cautiously Optimistic.
--Inspired tonight by the art of Lisa Montag Brotman
"She Was Cautiously Optimistic", original oil on canvas, L. Brotman
